Nyein Kyaw - The golden ear of love is brought to you by the first love.

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The wind blowing from the surface of the dam's water ruffled the white hair. He lifted the thin strands of hair that had fallen on his forehead to the right. At the top of his head, the white face was the same as mine. His dark eyes seemed to sink into my heart. In that moment, without blinking, my breasts began to heave. At that moment, I was afraid that he would put his face in my arms and come in. I was afraid that he would ask me if my breasts were heaving. I was afraid that he would ask me why my breasts were heaving. If Phyu asked me those questions, everything I had planned to say would be completely buried. Here I would still be a historical person who was lying to Phyu. I wonder if Surashati could no longer guard the lips of the one who had to confess the truth. I wanted to tremble. Phyu would notice and see.

"If you have something to say, say it."

I watched as her red, moist lips moved. The words that would have changed her clear face did not come out of her lips. I could only see her gaze with a kind heart. But I don't think I could understand that gaze in a different way.

"Tell me what you're looking at, bro."

I let out a long sigh. I thought I was about to say something that would hurt her beautiful face. As I tensed up, I saw a white smile.

"About Nyomar"

I thought that if I heard the name I had been associated with, my face would immediately turn pale. But I was wrong. The smile on Phyu's lips did not move, did not diminish. It became even more vivid. I could see the tip of her little tooth. Phyu seemed to be in no way different.

“If Nyo Mar and Maung have nothing to do with each other, tell Maung Pe Phyu.”

As he finished speaking, he noticed that his eyebrows were furrowing. His tone was light. However, he suspected that it was deliberately made up. Since hearing the name Nyo Ma, his white gaze had become more intense. He felt his eyelids droop. He could hear the sweet voice faintly. Was it really a subtle change? Was it just my imagination? I couldn't tell. Maybe he was too excited.

"I've been wanting to tell you for a long time," he replied.

The smile on Phyu's lips had disappeared. Phyu looked back with a calmness that seemed unnatural. He had said 9 times, "What's wrong, brother?" The teacher didn't see the question of the ignorant person. He didn't dare to hear the innocent person's voice.

"Brother, it's not good." "Brother, it's not good, right? What did you say, brother?"

Phyu's question was in shock. Suddenly, she couldn't answer. Regret filled her throat. She kept her eyes on the surface of the lake.

"Yes, Phyu, go kill Mong Phyu. Go kill Mong Phyu until he's half dead."

The white hand reached his shoulder.

“Oh no, brother. What is wrong with you? Even if you are wrong, Phyu will never do as you say. Why should you beat me? Why should you kill me?”

I felt a pang of pain. I had never felt such a heart-wrenching pain before. It was so intense.

"I'll tell you, Phyu. After this, don't let Phyu leave you alone. Do as Phyu pleases. I don't want to be a fool anymore."

"Speak up, brother, just speak up."

The eyes that have passed the water are drifting towards the foot of Mount Salin. The blue mountain mist blends with the green forest.

"It's true that Nyo Ma and Maung are engaged, Phyu."

At the end of the sentence, I closed my eyes tightly. I couldn't hear Phyu's voice. My heart tightened. Phyu's words didn't sound right. I thought Phyu must be right next to me. Had he flown away to the forest in the form of a bird? Had he disappeared into the water in the form of a fish? Had he broken through the ground and fled in the form of a dragon? Or had he become vaporized by anger? But he didn't dare to look at Phyu. Phyu's voice came first to my ears, which were so sensitive that they could hear even the sound of a bee. It wasn't long before he was gone.

"Right"

A sound of astonishment, much more intense than the pain of a broken heart. A sound of lamentation that comes from a heart of sorrow. There is a thin layer of water between the surface of the lake and the view.

Today, Ko Thet and Phyu met at nine o'clock. He had to skip school because he had something to say. They sat down at the dam and talked. He apologized for not consulting Nyein Nyein. At that moment, Phyu heard something unexpected. The word was that he and a woman named Nyo Ma were engaged. Phyu was very shocked when she heard it. Nyein thought about what would happen. Phyu was very angry. He wanted to run away from where he was sitting. But he didn't respond until I followed him. I don't know if the anger was too much inside him or because his face was too sad. He didn't say anything.

I was surprised. I thought back to that day's white face. The lines on the lips were all perfectly defined. I couldn't even see the slightest hint of anger. Only when I read the white letter did I realize the white heart. What a white letter that could hide. .

But I don't know if it's because I'm so hurt inside, Nyein Nyein. I couldn't control my tears. I was so sad that I burst into tears. I wasn't ashamed either. Nyo Ma was a woman Phyu and I met during the inter-school cross-country race. She was from the second year of high school where she and Ko Thet were dating. Phyu asked him. "Are you just testing Phyu?" "I'm not testing her because I think she's easy to please." He answered. "He really loves Phyu." "Didn't he get engaged because he loved Nyo Ma?" Phyu asked, and he shook his head. He looked at Phyu. The jade ring on his hand was just visible. If he didn't love Nyo Ma, would he still be wearing that engagement ring? Nyein Nyein thought about it, Phyu said something.

I looked at the jade ring on my left ring finger with excitement. Although I had been wearing it for a long time, I had no obvious feelings for it. From Phyu's perspective, it must have been something. The thing that made Phyu cry. I thought that Phyu's perspective had not entered my heart when I was there. I could not comfort Phyu who was crying. The knowledge that I had caused her pain, and the thought that I wanted to torture myself, made me think, but I did not think. For a moment, I felt like a lifeless person. Phyu, don't cry, seeing Phyu shed tears, my heart ached so much. I also felt a deep sense of loss. I remember silently saying, "Shut up, Phyu."

The breakup was short. He didn't say anything. Phyu really wanted to know what was going on in his mind. But how could he know the truth, Nyein Nyein? I had asked him when I heard the news that he and Nyo Ma were engaged. He had answered. No. Phyu believed him. That's why he was lying to Phyu. He would never tell the truth when he lied. I praised Phyu for not pretending to lie for so long. If he kept lying to the world, Mi Phyu would still be in trouble. He said. Hit him. Do as you like. Nyein Nyein knows. Phyu, how much he loves him. The anger is not his. Phyu is Phyu. So how could Phyu hurt him? He was the one who caused Phyu wounds that would never heal. It was cruel. They sat by the lake for a long time. He returned home after school. He didn't say a word. It felt like he was taking the words out of her mind and throwing them away. She also thought that she had wasted her time. As usual, she didn't eat the chocolate she had given her. She shook her head and sighed. That made her feel sad again.

In fact, while he was tearing the chocolate, Phyu turned around. He looked at her with eyes that knew he was being teased. Phyu raised the hand holding the chocolate to his lips and shook his head. Phyu's face didn't even have a hint of a smile. That's why I thought so. I didn't dare to say, "Eat, Phyu." After a long time of crying, I moved my hand without intending to. Phyu seemed to see me throw it with my middle finger. The chocolate fell into the water, and the sound rang in my ears. Like Phyu, I watched the waves slowly lapping against the shore. At that moment, Phyu's lips moved. And when she was trembling unconsciously, I turned around. Phyu's eyes, dark and clear, that had made me fall in love with her, were looking at the other side. And Phyu couldn't tell if Phyu was angry with me.

It's like taking someone else's property, Nyein Nyein. I'll give it back to you when it's in your hands. I decided to go back to the dam. The way back has no meaning other than separation. When I got home, I was upset again. Bo Thant Zin was there. I didn't talk to him. I was lying in my room, saying I had a headache. I really couldn't sleep. I heard him talking to my mother. He came back from the army on leave. His parents will also visit me next month. I won't go back for a long time. I'll stay until Daddy comes back from the office. I didn't eat dinner, but I'm grateful. If it weren't for milk, we would have to face each other at the rice field. If it weren't for that, I would have pretended to have a headache. Parents agreeing is different. Phyu loves only Ko Thet. That's all, Nyein said.

I didn't know that the steps back from the dam separated me. Every word in Phyu's letter seemed to be tearing my heart apart. I realized the reason why I couldn't continue reading. Phyu told me about it four or five months ago. The words about Bo Thant Zin, the parents of both sides had started talking, but Phyu still hadn't answered. Phyu told me about it. I was his traveling companion, his love, his wife. He said that he couldn't even think of loving Bo Thant Zin. No matter what Phyu's attitude was, Bo Thant Zin was the only one who had the right to enter and leave Phyu's house. I didn't have that opportunity. I realized that my face was flushed because I read about him in Phyu's letter.

Imagine Phyu's life. Until she sat by the lake and heard him say that he and Nyo Ma were really engaged, the future she had imagined had been so beautiful for Phyu. It was so peaceful. It was so joyful. When she heard it, she couldn't believe her ears. She felt sad thinking about the ruined future. It was like looking at a beautiful broken glass with so much pity. She even forgot to pick it up one by one, and she felt so empty inside. You know, it was just one thing. You can't eat. You can't focus on one thing. You can't sleep with your eyes closed. Now that I'm writing this letter, it's been a long time since I heard the clock strike midnight. Phyu's mind is so restless. I'm thinking about everything. I've seen it in my eyes again. I asked myself many questions. Some I can answer. Some I can't answer. It's true that I love Ko Thet. I don't want to break up with him. I don't want to break up with him. He's cruel and I feel sorry for him. I want to hate him. If I could just forget him for a moment, it would be a great relief. I can't keep my brain quiet. I think you'll understand, my friend. I can't even breathe. I'm suffocating.

Thinking and understanding, I had predicted that the burning emotion would surely erode the white skin since I intended to tell the truth. I could see the white skin that was still. White must have been struggling to hide such a sharp and violent pain in her heart. The person who hurt me should have hurt me many times. She should have hated me greatly. She should have forgotten me for an eternity. If I had to judge my own dharma, it would have to be with that mother, that hatred, and that pain. Yet, White still loved me.